These 5 men haunt my dreams
A long time ago, I blogged about my dating history that started in college. I will do an update soon, however, for the past weeks, there have been 5 guys from my past that I find myself thinking about and even dreaming about.
Guy #1--Football superstar
We dated in college from my sophomore year until my senior year. It was quite a superficial relationship, but I'm a girl and girls have feelings and I developed feelings for him. He had feelings for me too, but he had feelings for another girl also. He was uber sexy and I don't use the word "sexy" often. For some reason, every now and then he pops up in my head and I wonder how he is and who he's with. I'm sure whoever he's with is truly enjoying herself. Dag, he was beautiful.
Guy #2--Mister
I've blogged and blogged about Mister. We shared craziness for over 4 years and I was even gonna marry him until God rescued me. For some reason I believe that we are gonna run into each other and he's gonna be this changed man and we are gonna be together.
Guy #3--Magic Fingers
I've blogged about him too. He's the guy that I kept wanting to call him "Football superstar's" name because he reminded me so much of him. He's uber sexy also. I just love a guy with a bald head and chocolate skin. I would link his picture here, but it would take me too long to find it in my blog archives. I saw him about two weeks ago and we shared pleastries. I was only way to the post office today and sure enough he rode by on his motorcycle--looking cool with his rainbow shades. As he rode by I saw his head follow me. "Yes, it's me," I wanted to wave, but something wouldn't allow me to.
Guy #4--Price
For some reason, I still think about him. I even had the sexiest dream about him the other day. The crazy thing is that I never even liked him like that. Not until our tryst last year. I wish we could go back to being friends, but I know we can't. He messaged me on FB and asked me if I wanted to go to lunch. I didn't respond. I wanted to, but I know it would not have been right. I've got to let him go. UGH!!
Guy #5--Connect Four (actually I called him Coach in my blog)
I can't remember if I blogged about him. I'm sure I did because he was the cause of my downward spiral at the beginning of this year. I would have married this guy--had he been sane. Man, I was crazy about him, so crazy that I allowed myself to get hurt. I don't want to run into him, but if I did, I wouldn't know what to day. He would have been the the one, if I was insane I would have married him when he asked. Thank God for sanity because from what I know now, his ex-wife is taking him through the wringer in court.
I've really got to do a spiritual cleanse from these guys. They can't haunt my thoughts, my dreams, my emotions. I won't dare go into another relationship knowing that my emotions are still with them. WHAT GUY WOULD WANT THAT???? Just like I don't want to guy that thinks about an ex, I wouldn't want to do that to someone. I've been reading this blog about this guy (until I get married) and he talks about his dating issues. He's comical and gives really good insight into the mind of men, however, he talks about these other women and man I could imagine dating him and he has all these memories that come up about these other women. I don't want to remember anything that is significant about a past relationship that may cause an issue in the future. Of course I can't just gain amnesia (I wish I could), but I don't want the memory to impact me. I don't want any emotions attached to it, I don't want to hope and wish that I see a guy again.
God help me, cleanse myself of past emotional ties with these guys. I can't move on without letting it go.
Guy #1--Football superstar
We dated in college from my sophomore year until my senior year. It was quite a superficial relationship, but I'm a girl and girls have feelings and I developed feelings for him. He had feelings for me too, but he had feelings for another girl also. He was uber sexy and I don't use the word "sexy" often. For some reason, every now and then he pops up in my head and I wonder how he is and who he's with. I'm sure whoever he's with is truly enjoying herself. Dag, he was beautiful.
Guy #2--Mister
I've blogged and blogged about Mister. We shared craziness for over 4 years and I was even gonna marry him until God rescued me. For some reason I believe that we are gonna run into each other and he's gonna be this changed man and we are gonna be together.
Guy #3--Magic Fingers
I've blogged about him too. He's the guy that I kept wanting to call him "Football superstar's" name because he reminded me so much of him. He's uber sexy also. I just love a guy with a bald head and chocolate skin. I would link his picture here, but it would take me too long to find it in my blog archives. I saw him about two weeks ago and we shared pleastries. I was only way to the post office today and sure enough he rode by on his motorcycle--looking cool with his rainbow shades. As he rode by I saw his head follow me. "Yes, it's me," I wanted to wave, but something wouldn't allow me to.
Guy #4--Price
For some reason, I still think about him. I even had the sexiest dream about him the other day. The crazy thing is that I never even liked him like that. Not until our tryst last year. I wish we could go back to being friends, but I know we can't. He messaged me on FB and asked me if I wanted to go to lunch. I didn't respond. I wanted to, but I know it would not have been right. I've got to let him go. UGH!!
Guy #5--Connect Four (actually I called him Coach in my blog)
I can't remember if I blogged about him. I'm sure I did because he was the cause of my downward spiral at the beginning of this year. I would have married this guy--had he been sane. Man, I was crazy about him, so crazy that I allowed myself to get hurt. I don't want to run into him, but if I did, I wouldn't know what to day. He would have been the the one, if I was insane I would have married him when he asked. Thank God for sanity because from what I know now, his ex-wife is taking him through the wringer in court.
I've really got to do a spiritual cleanse from these guys. They can't haunt my thoughts, my dreams, my emotions. I won't dare go into another relationship knowing that my emotions are still with them. WHAT GUY WOULD WANT THAT???? Just like I don't want to guy that thinks about an ex, I wouldn't want to do that to someone. I've been reading this blog about this guy (until I get married) and he talks about his dating issues. He's comical and gives really good insight into the mind of men, however, he talks about these other women and man I could imagine dating him and he has all these memories that come up about these other women. I don't want to remember anything that is significant about a past relationship that may cause an issue in the future. Of course I can't just gain amnesia (I wish I could), but I don't want the memory to impact me. I don't want any emotions attached to it, I don't want to hope and wish that I see a guy again.
God help me, cleanse myself of past emotional ties with these guys. I can't move on without letting it go.
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