What am I thinking?
On Friday, I was driving down the street and while at the intersection, a car passes by me and the guy waves. I almost didn't pay any attention, but quickly noticed that it was Musicbox. We were friends for a long time, but after I changed my phone number last year, I didn't give it to him. At the time, I didn't see the need. Our relationship had been going downhill.
Ever since he told me that his church didn't condone going to the movies and that he couldn't be my roommate because we would be considered shacking, I kind of started to back out of the friendship. I was never interested in him as a boyfriend, so I had no trouble with us being roommates. Also there was one night that he sent me a text that was quite inappropriate. So that sealed the deal--our friendship was not gonna last much longer.
This summer, I him at the store and we sat and talked a little bit. He gave me his number. He didn't ask for mine. I was glad because I wasn't interested in giving it to him.
So, imagine my surprise when after a I saw him on Friday, I began thinking about him. WHAT? He consumed my mind on Saturday. I spent a decent amount of time looking at his Fb page. I knew at one point he was engaged, but his status had changed to single again. However, he still had the picture of the girl on his page. So, I'm not sure what his status is. Why do I even care? I've never been interested in him. Am I becoming desperate? There are some other reason why I'm not interested in him, but he doesn't fit my profile of the type of guy that I want to be with. Why am I thinking about him? Why? Why? Why? Am I just missing his friendship??? I don't want to be consumed with any man right now. I want to be consumed in my relationship with God.
Ever since he told me that his church didn't condone going to the movies and that he couldn't be my roommate because we would be considered shacking, I kind of started to back out of the friendship. I was never interested in him as a boyfriend, so I had no trouble with us being roommates. Also there was one night that he sent me a text that was quite inappropriate. So that sealed the deal--our friendship was not gonna last much longer.
This summer, I him at the store and we sat and talked a little bit. He gave me his number. He didn't ask for mine. I was glad because I wasn't interested in giving it to him.
So, imagine my surprise when after a I saw him on Friday, I began thinking about him. WHAT? He consumed my mind on Saturday. I spent a decent amount of time looking at his Fb page. I knew at one point he was engaged, but his status had changed to single again. However, he still had the picture of the girl on his page. So, I'm not sure what his status is. Why do I even care? I've never been interested in him. Am I becoming desperate? There are some other reason why I'm not interested in him, but he doesn't fit my profile of the type of guy that I want to be with. Why am I thinking about him? Why? Why? Why? Am I just missing his friendship??? I don't want to be consumed with any man right now. I want to be consumed in my relationship with God.
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