30 Something

Well, after a really good weekend with my bf, it went back to the norm. We didn't talk during the week. However, I called him on the day that I was called to the registrar's office. I wanted to talk about the day, but I didn't feel comfortable enough to talk to him about it. I did however, tell him that they are waiving the tuition to allow the student to take the class this summer. I also expressed to him my need to do well in my class this summer. I wanted to be close to him because emotionally I needed him, but the time and space wasn't right. So, I didn't expect to talk to him again until this weekend, but surprisingly I got a call on Tuesday. Immediately I felt really good: He was calling me on a week day! But my excitement went sour when he brought up an old argument about a question he asked me and I lied about it. He stated that the proof was in writting which it was, but when he was asking me I didn't want to admit it. His call was to tell me that he found the proof and to tell me that he caught me in a lie. Well, not to diminish his point, but I was focused on the fact that his only reason for calling me was to catch me in a lie. That saddened me. I tried to explain to him that I lied because I did't want to admit to him what he was asking. But he wouldn't accept it, he basically said that he can't trust me to tell him how I truely feel when I lie about things. He started to be frustrated at me. I didn't know what to say. He dismissed it and we got off the phone and haven't talked in the last two day. My life is turning upside down. I admit I have a problem lying. I don't want to lie, I just get embarrassed or my life is so boring so I make up stuff. I just blantanly make stuff up. I need help--like liars anonymous or something.

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