30 Something

On last week I was sick. My bf was sick also. i totally believe that we are connected spritually because he's been shady and I hadn't spent time with him at all besides borrowing his car to go to work on the day that he stayed home in bed, so how did I catch his cold. Okay, I really don't know if I got it from him but we both ended up sick at the same time. So, we didn't spend anytime together which made it two weeks with no kisses, hugging, nooky, etc. So I finally got time to spend with him on Sunday afternoon and evening. The whole time he played video games. Did I care? NO, I didn't care one bit because I was just so happy to be with him and to get some nooky. The next day I put a little note on his desk telling him that I really enjoyed our time together and telling him that he is the love of my life. But then a day later I see him with another girl that I'd really not care to see him with. My poor poor heart. It's torture. But I let it go because of course It's all my fault. I want to ask him if we are totally over because I can leave him and move on, of course he is the best I've been with in bed, so that will be hard, but emotionally I can detach. I'm so scared to ask him though, but I think it's that time. I think I need closure on this rollar coaster ride and I think that today is the day that I will do it....


To Be Continued.

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