I'm not that into him

For some reason i have been really annoyed with terrance lately. there have been a lot of things that just irks me about him. 1. he's hypocritical. he's always talking to me about my health, ugh, the colon cleanse thing was getting to me, but he won't take into account his own health. he's a drinker, i wouldn't say an alcoholic, but everytime i talk to him he says he's been drinking. i talk to him almost every day. he's also a smoker and at first it didn't bother me because i lived with mister who was a chronic (pun intended) smoker, but with terrence it's like he doesn't understand that just because he says he can quit doesn't mean that he's not addicted. as a matter of fact he said he was going to quit on feb 1, but used a toothache as a reason not to quit. he smokes just about every day. that seems to be a problem. i can't stand it, i don't like anyone telling me how to life my life if he/she can't be an example of what to do. it's like the pot calling the kettle black. recently, since i've bought him the colon cleanser that he said he wanted, he's gotten off his soap box about that and found something new to harp on me about. this morning the same guy who does the colon cleanse informercial was tooting information about pre-diabetes. "u here that baby, he said that if u tired all the time, u may be pre-diabetic." wtf? i'm tired because i work 60 hours a fucking week. shut up already. he is driving me up the wall. i called him this morning to tell him that i was mad because of his criticism and he had the nerve to tell me that i was trying to change him. i'm not trying to change him one bit. if u want to smoke and drink urself into an early grave then that's on u, but don't criticise my bout what i'm doing. i never once said anything about what he drinks or smokes. i told him that i didn't like kissing an ash tray and that i hated that smell of weed and alchohol on someone's breath, but i never once told him that he needed to change to be with me. just don't do it around me. the other night he came over he smelled like a wino and expected me to have sex with him. i was repulsed. then he had the nerve to tell me that i didn't care about him because i never tell him. no i don't love him, but i do care, but i'm not gonna sit and criticise a person. people have to deal with themselves and they don't need me to tell them what is or is not wrong in their lives and i won't do that, but that doesn't mean that i don't care.

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