30 Something

Sigma man hasn't text me, emailed, or nothing. Dag, I can sure run em off. I don't like it when guys can't be real. If it was about sex, why not just let me know. Ugh, don't act like it will be more. Ok, I can assume that he's not talking to me because I won't have sex with him, but maybe it's because I told him I prayed for him. As much craziness that's going on, I need all the prayer I can get so when a friend says he/she prayed for me, I thank them. Oh, well, I still hear wedding bells.......

Magic fingers was at school on Wednesday, Ugh, I had a scarf on, not my prettiest, but oh well. The dean asked me out. I was being nice when he asked me to guess his age and I said 37. Honestly he looked about 47, but he then told me he was 55. He's a grandpa. My children would be his grandchildren's age. Hahahaha. He's a nice man. I told him I'd go to lunch with him. I'm thinking as a colleague, not as a date, but I didn't tell him that. Mr. B called me. I've been good about avoiding him, but I will say I do miss his companionship. Dag, I need to make some new friends.

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In other news, Sigma man is quite confusing. I don't know what he wants. One minute he seems to want a relationship and when I try to hook him up with somebody he gets defense and says I don't know what I want. I hate people that don' t say what they want. Ugh. It gives me a headache cause I"m not gonna guess or assume that u want me. No, I don't want to have sex, but I do want a man and if u gotta have sex with me to be in a relationship with me, then I'm sorry I don't want the relationship. Why is he being difficult.

He did send me a really nice HNT.

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For some reason i have been really annoyed with terrance lately. there have been a lot of things that just irks me about him. 1. he's hypocritical. he's always talking to me about my health, ugh, the colon cleanse thing was getting to me, but he won't take into account his own health. he's a drinker, i wouldn't say an alcoholic, but everytime i talk to him he says he's been drinking. i talk to him almost every day. he's also a smoker and at first it didn't bother me because i lived with mister who was a chronic (pun intended) smoker, but with terrence it's like he doesn't understand that just because he says he can quit doesn't mean that he's not addicted. as a matter of fact he said he was going to quit on feb 1, but used a toothache as a reason not to quit. he smokes just about every day. that seems to be a problem. i can't stand it, i don't like anyone telling me how to life my life if he/she can't be an example of what to do. it's like the pot calling the kettle black. recently, since i've bought him the colon cleanser that he said he wanted, he's gotten off his soap box about that and found something new to harp on me about. this morning the same guy who does the colon cleanse informercial was tooting information about pre-diabetes. "u here that baby, he said that if u tired all the time, u may be pre-diabetic." wtf? i'm tired because i work 60 hours a fucking week. shut up already. he is driving me up the wall. i called him this morning to tell him that i was mad because of his criticism and he had the nerve to tell me that i was trying to change him. i'm not trying to change him one bit. if u want to smoke and drink urself into an early grave then that's on u, but don't criticise my bout what i'm doing. i never once said anything about what he drinks or smokes. i told him that i didn't like kissing an ash tray and that i hated that smell of weed and alchohol on someone's breath, but i never once told him that he needed to change to be with me. just don't do it around me. the other night he came over he smelled like a wino and expected me to have sex with him. i was repulsed. then he had the nerve to tell me that i didn't care about him because i never tell him. no i don't love him, but i do care, but i'm not gonna sit and criticise a person. people have to deal with themselves and they don't need me to tell them what is or is not wrong in their lives and i won't do that, but that doesn't mean that i don't care.

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