30 Something

I can't wait for tonight. We've planned and planned and it's finally here. Me and the girls are gonna have so much fun tonight. I've got the perfect Samantha dress. I just hope it doesn't rain. Carrie is backing out and gonna wear jeans if it rains. I hope we have fun. I've invited a few extra people--J, and Jos, and Cori. I hope at least Cori can make it. We will have a lotta fun if she shows up. Dinner is at 8, movie at 10 and blocks afterwards....


Smooches

--Samantha

You know, I don't think I knew what the word, "deployed" meant until we went to war. Now when you hear the term everyone knows what it means. Well, I looked it up anyway to get the exact definition and google defines it as, to place troops or weapons in battle formation. I'm not sure why that was important to me besides the fact that I've never actually knew what it meant until a few years ago, but my brother has been deployed to Iraq. My sis called me on Friday and told me the news. I then called him to confirm it with him. Yep, he was doing security in Iraq, 16 hour shifts for the next month. He should be home early July. I can't wait until he comes home. I pray everyday for his safety.

Mayday, mayday. I'm falling fast. Mister sent me a text on valentines day, but i didn't respond (actually I deleted it), but he texted me today asking for my mailing addy so he could send me money that he owes me. We started a conversation and have not stopped. THis can't be happening. Not now. I'm so vulnerable now. My good friend is leaving me and I have no one and now he wants to talk. What is going on?

Movie comes out at the end of this month. It's also the day one of my best buds is moving. We've decided to dress up like the characters. I'm picking Samantha. Hopefully, I don't take on that personification. I can't afford to. It's gonna be so fun.

*Matt Damon* siting yesterday. Okay, not really, but after my blog on yesterday I was heading back to school and I saw all these people lined up down the street and then I saw police cars. At first I was thinking major car accident, but as I got closer I realized they were filming by the big brothers and big sisters building. It was exciting. Too bad I did't have time to wait around to see some action, but it was fun to be so close. I was thinking about that and the SATC movie. Most of the show was filmed in New York. I guess people in NY and Cali see movie stars all the time because the movies are filmed there, so there's not much excitement, but I'm a midwesterner there's not much excitement here.

Happy Bday to me!!. Ok, belated. As of 5/5/08 I'm officially over 30. So now I have to come up with another line when my students ask me how old I am. "Not over 30," won't work anymore. I enjoyed my time in Palm Springs and spent my actual bday at home in bed resting. I was so tired from my trip. On last Friday my job sent me on a retreat to Allerton Park on Monticello and it was a beautiful park. When I got back home on Saturday I went out with B for a late night rendevous that turned out to be not a good idea. I hate myself for making out with him, but it was fun. I had to repent when I went back to church on Sunday. I blame Sigma Man. He had me all hyped up....

When I got back to town on last Sunday I found out that scenes for the upcoming movie, The Informant, was being filmed in town. I didn't get to experience the snow and the signage changes or the mall being transformed into a christmas wonderland, but it was interesting to read about the hoopla surrounding Matt Damon citings. He supposed to be here filming until the end of the month. Maybe I can get a peak at Jason Bourne someday before he leaves. That's the most excitement this town has had in a long time.

The end of the school year is nigh and I'm counting the days. T minus 8 days. So far 85% of my students are passing. I wanted it to be 95%, but I can't make students do their work. Ugh.

I didn't get the job. I was so nervous when I interviewed that I bumped the table going in and bumped it going on. The questions were hard:

What is my definition of leadership vs. management?
How do I want students, parents, colleagues to see me?
What would I do to address the truancy program and the drop out rate?
Why do I want to live in Decatur?
How do I deal with difficult situations?

I can't remember the rest.

So I've had this semi-discussion with Sigma man about what's going on with him. He says he's interested in me, but he's not making any effort to hang out (I know we live 35 miles apart, but that's not really that far). So I haven't come to any conclusion. I don't know if he simply just wants a booty call or what. I've even told him that I really wasn't that interested and that I wanted to hook him up with a friend of mine, but he's told me that he didn't want to meet anyone else. I've then told him that I wasn't interested in sex with him and he's still communicating with me. I don't get it. Usually when I tell a guy that I don't want to have sex with him, he moves on or we become friends. I think Sigma man and I would become good friends, but we simply flirt and that's it. It's superficial stuff. We don't even talk on the phone, it's all emails and text. One night he asked me to send him a pic of myself. I told him that I'd send him a HNT and that's about it and since then, we've been flirting hot and heavy, but I"m still not interested, especially if it's simply about sex. I've had enough of that with Mister and Magic fingers. I want a real relationship...I want to fall in love and I refuse to get into a physical relationship if there is nothing coming out of it. Ugh. I will say that he is indeed a very nice looking brother and right now I'm drooling over his HNT.

Palm Springs is such a beautiful place. Omg, the mountains.... I know I have "tourist" written on my forehead cause I gawk at everything. My batteries went dead in my camera so I wasn't able to take as many pics as I'd like, but I'm tryna get to a store to new ones.

I will say that I've been rejuvenated by hearing the stories of what other programs are doing. I've got a lotta good ideas and I feel a great task ahead of me, but I know what I've been called to do and I praise God for favor!!