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I was thinking about a message that Prophetess spoke quite some time ago and as I was thinking about it I thought about you and I wanted to use it to encourage you. I don't remember the entire lesson, but I remember the scripture:

1 Timothy 6:12 (Amplified Bible)
Fight the good fight of the faith; lay hold of the eternal life to which you were summoned and [for which] you confessed the good confession [of faith] before many witnesses.

She was explaining that the Apostle Paul was writing to Timothy. He tells him to …Fight the good fight of faith…

When you look at FAITH, you will find that it is what keeps us connected to God, without FAITH, it is impossible to please GOD (Hebrews 11:6) because FAITH is the substance of things hoped for…The New Living Translation says, "Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.. Hebrews 11: 1.

The Apostle Paul was telling Timothy to fight for his FAITH, fight for the confidence to know that what he hoped for will actually happen.

Fight for YOUR FAITH!! Fight for the confidence in God to know that what YOU hope for WILL actually happen. Fight for it!! Because if you don't fight for your FAITH, you will doubt and doubt brings about unbelief and causes you to be unsure. You can't have confidence when you doubt. It can lead to fear.

When you read Hebrews 11 it tells about all of the people who had FAITH to believe that God was going to bring to pass what was promised to them—Abel, Enoch, Abraham, Noah, Sarah, Isaac, etc….

It was their FAITH that kept them waking up in the morning, kept them praising God, kept them walking in the things of God….God told Noah it was gonna rain. He had to fight for his FAITH because I'm sure everybody was saying he was crazy. God told Sarah she would have a child. She laughed because of her age, but Abraham had FAITH to believe God when he said he would be the father of many nations. It was by FAITH that Isaac blessed his sons Jacob and Esau and by FAITH Moses' parents hid him from a Pharaoh who was killing the male children. It was all by FAITH!!!!

Despite what it looks like, despite what you go through FIGHT FOR YOUR FAITH!!!

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King James Bible
24Now unto him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy,

25To the only wise God our Saviour, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and ever. Amen.

The Message Bible
24-25And now to him who can keep you on your feet, standing tall in his bright presence, fresh and celebrating—to our one God, our only Savior, through Jesus Christ, our Master, be glory, majesty, strength, and rule before all time, and now, and to the end of all time. Yes.

I couldn't find the song to add to my blog, so I just copied the lyrics

This is Donald Lawrence: GOD

Verse 1:
Oh Thou who knowest my beginning,
Thou who created the plan,
who orchestrated my life's journey;
God, You are my God.

Verse 2:
God of decisions, Creator of answers,
Thou who ordained my way,
through my transition, held my position;
God, You are my God.

Chorus 1:
I will forever give You praise,
honor and celebrate Your name,
God of the past, present, and Who is to come;
oh (God, You are my God).

Verse 1

Chorus 2:
(I will) forever give You praise,
(honor and) celebrate Your name,
(God of the) past, present, and Who is to come;
God, You are my God.

(I will) forever give You praise,
(honor and) celebrate Your name,
(God of the) past, present,
and Who is to come,
Who is to come...

Bridge:
Whatever You do with (me) it's alright,
(You have my total trust), You have my trust.
(Glory and) honor, (dominion and) power;
(God, You are my God).

Vamp:
God, oh God,
You are the only wise God.

Ending:
(Oh Thou who knowest my beginning),
(God, You are my God).

God, You are my God.
(repeat as desired)

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I went to Kroger to pick up some tomatoes for my gyros. I pulled into the parking lot and noticed my dream car--A Venusian Grey Convertible Bentley. Ok, I haven't really thought about the color of the car that I want, but I love the Bentley. So I wanted to see who the driver was. I was picturing an old wrinkly, white guy, as I walked around the store. When I left I decided to move parking places to get a closer look and to wait to see who would come claim the car. After about 15 min of waiting a middle aged white woman put her things in the car and drove off. Initially I was thinking to follow her, but left that idea alone. I kept thinking about how "normal" she looked. Of course the Bently is not the most expensive car, but to drive one I'm sure u need a lot of money. I left the parking lot shortly after the woman and noticed that she was ahead of me at the stoplight. I decided that it wouldn't hurt to see where she lived. I noticed that she didn't have an illinois license plate and I didn't get close enought to figure out what state it said, but it looked like Florida. I tailed her from far behind and lost her after she drove to the neighborhood with the million dollar homes on the lake.

I've been reevaluating myself to be calibrated to the will of God. And I've been reflecting on the prophesy that was spoken into my life and on the passion that I have for helping young people. In the process of doing this, I've been thinking about the vision for the rest of my life.

When I was 22 I sat down to write out my life and God spoke to me about what I would be doing. I had a timeline of what I would be doing at different ages and for some reason I stopped at about age 32. God had blessed me to meet the goals that I had for myself and as I was approaching 30 I began to think about where I was going and I couldn't figure out why I stopped my goals at age 32. For about a year I pondered on this and it came to me: my goal was to get married around 32 and I didn't want to have a vision for my life that was going to change due to such a life alteration. However, I'm 32 and I'm not married so I've been seeking God for a direction with my life. This the reason for reflection and revisiting what God had spoke to me.

God used my Pastor to prophecy that I would help a lot of young girls. Of course my passion is to work with young people and even young girls who need guidance and assistance with decisions that they are making. I've been working on that with the job that I'm doing. Some girls have attached themselves to me and I want to make sure that I'm a good role model for them, so I'm working on my character and integrity. I also want to get into coaching because a lot of what I do involves coaching them about life. I really want to coach something that I"m good at. I think I"m going to call myself a "Career Coach" instead of a "Career Specialist."

God also used my pastor to prophesy to me that I would be training professionals. I was excited when me and a coworker prentation a workshop at a statewide conference in April. Also, I've been putting together a conference for the organization that I work for, so I"m gonna use some of my skills there.

Then I was thinking about what I'm passionate about and that is helping young people to succeed. So, I was looking at the program that I teach and tyring to see how I can structure it to help me meet my goals while pushing them to succeed.

I've created an Opportunities Program that will be used to create opportunities for young people. Some young people don't realize the potential that they have, but if they have the opportunity to open their minds they can be motivated to do better. So, I pitched an idea to my boss about sponsoring a trip to D.C. for about 24 youth for next summer. I want to open the door for them to open their minds about their life and their future. Also, for Spring Break I want to sponsor an Illinois College Road trip to help the young people realize the possibilities of college and to help them to see the opportunity that they have.

Awhile back I designed a program for 8th graders to help them to realize the opportunity of college (wow, I'm almost in tears because God is so good to me. I just realized that the reason that I realized my potential was because when I was going to the ninth grade I had the opportunity to stay on campus for two weeks at EIU to take college courses. God opened that door for me and I entered high school with a subconsciously with a goal. When I was going into my senior year I went for 6 weeks to college to take course--this time for credit. This opened the door for me to become accepted to go to school there. I realized that I want to allow these same opportunities to young people.)

I also have this desire to research young people. I want to take the young people that I serve and put them into a study and then write a book about the experiences--I really want to research girls and their choices to have sex. I want to write a book about girls who wait and why they wait and how they stay focused in the midst of the society we live in.

I want to go to school to work on my Ph. D and while doing that work on my research especially since I have the young people at my disposal.

So, when will I get married?????? I hope soon because the Bible says it's better to marry than to burn. God honors His word!!! Lord, I WANT to marry so I WON'T burn.

I like bargain shopping and when I find a deal I take it. I bought two bags of stir fry veggies for 1.79 each and I had some chicken in the freezer, so I decided that I wanted to chicken stir fry. However, I was looking up info on how to cook beans and found out that if u keep them on the shelf too long the become hard and useless. Well, I've had beans in my cupboards for over a year, so I decided to cook them, all of them two lbs of pinto and white beans. They turned out wonderful. But I've been eating refried beans for a couple of weeks, so I cooked my chicken stir fry and decided that they might taste good with a few beans and surprisingly it did. A different flavor--the beans added, but it was very filling. Now I have to figure out if I can freeze beans cause theyve been in the fridge and I don't want them to go bad. Bing, here I come.

In other news,

Mr. M texted me. Okay, I haven't talked much about my dating life, but over the last month or so I've hung out with LP, a singer who I went to high school went. During high school I had a crush on him, but we were just friends. After high school we had a summer fling the I kind of remember...it was hot and steamy. I'm not sure what happened, but we didn't keep in touch. So, I got to hanging out with him and a few old things came up and we made a few wrong moves, but I've since regained my sense. Meanwhile, Mr. M, who confessed to me that he had a major crush on my since high school, has been asking me out. Well, it started with asking him to send him pics to his phone---uh, no. Actually, I"m glad I can't send pics so that nixed that idea. Then we met up at home and after hanging out for a while and laughing some, he got a little handsy and kissy face. The bad thing is that I loved the way he kissed, the good thing is that I got away, of course not after being bit by malicious mosquitos cause he didn't want to let me go, but I did get away. He later called me to apologize and ask if he offended me. I told him I was a little surprised that he was moving so fast and that I didn't know what he wanted. He told me that he didn't want anything, just that he had this huge crush on me and commented on "the girls." So I dismissed it. He laughed when I asked, "You must ain't had none in a loooonnng time." We both laughed. So I let it go.

We texted and talked a few other times, then I told him I was gonna be home for the holiday and nothing. He didn't respond. So I called him and left a message and again, nothing. So I left it alone. No time to chase. Well, he texted me today to tell me that tell me that he was out of town---in Springfield. Huh, what? I live in Decatur, like 30 miles from Springfield. Obviously, you didn't want to see me cause if you did, it would have happened. So, I'm a little confused. I don't want to be stupid, but man, I am so sick of guys playing games. If you want sex, leave me alone cause it's not gonna happen--the devil, the devil, the devil. He just wants me to fail, but Now unto Him who is able to keep me from falling... Thank you God.

I used to be a Heavy D fan when he came out. I loved the way he used to flow back in the day. He's back on the scene with a new reggea joint. I'm liking the island flavor.

Jude 1
1-2
I, Jude, am a slave to Jesus Christ and brother to James, writing to those loved by God the Father, called and kept safe by Jesus Christ. Relax, everything's going to be all right; rest, everything's coming together; open your hearts, love is on the way!

3-4
Dear friends, I've dropped everything to write you about this life of salvation that we have in common. I have to write insisting—begging!—that you fight with everything you have in you for this faith entrusted to us as a gift to guard and cherish. What has happened is that some people have infiltrated our ranks (our Scriptures warned us this would happen), who beneath their pious skin are shameless scoundrels. Their design is to replace the sheer grace of our God with sheer license—which means doing away with Jesus Christ, our one and only Master.

Amplified Bible

Jude
16
These are inveterate murmurers (grumblers) who complain [of their lot in life], going after their own desires [controlled by their passions]; their talk is boastful and arrogant, [and they claim to] admire men's persons and pay people flattering compliments to gain advantage.


Father, God in the name of Jesus. Lord, I don't want to be a complainger. I don't want to be a boaster. I want to give you the glory for my life. Help me Jesus!!! Amen.

I've been praying to God to help me find my place, not just my purpose because I have insight as to what I am to do, it's just finding the vehicle to do it. Sometimes, while I'm working, I get frustrated or I get bored or I get unmotivated and according to what I'm hearing people say is that to do something that you are passionate about, will drive you. It will push you to succeed and I need that push because lately I've been feeling rather "blah" and it's because I don't feel that I'm in "place." Actually, feeling out of place most of my life is natural to me, but I refuse to believe that this is the way I'm supposed to operate--feeling on the outside looking in. One thing that I do know is the that Bible says, the steps of a righteous man are ordered by the Lord. God, thank you for ordering my steps.

So, I've been thinking and thinking and one thing that I want to do is provide opportunties for people who have no means--especially young people. I pithced an idea and my boss loves it. I just need to put everything down on paper to run with it. It ignited a spark in me, but I want to finish what I've started. I don't want to start one thing and run to the next without the previous thing being done. God, thank you for helping me to finish. Thank you Lord, Now unto Him who is able to keep me from falling....All honor and glory belongs to You, Father.

I need God to deal with me. I know that I've been in a transition during this year and God is dealing with me and I love Him for that, but it's kind of cloudy, where I'm going. I know that it has been prophecied that I would help a lot of young girls and that I would be in front of people teaching, but I'm a little unsure of the vehicle and I guess I really don't want that to be the focus. I don't want to try to advance myself, I don't want to try to promote myself. I want to be pleasing to God. I want to be pleasing to God, therefore, I don't want to be selfish cause in being selfish that produces jealousy. And I don't have time to be jealous of anyone at all. I thank God for His word because it is delivering me, I just need to hear His voice so that I know what to do and what not to do. So, I want to find my place and be comfortable in that place so that I can blossom and grow. For some reason I don't feel that I've found my place....Lord, where is my place???? I don't want to desire anyone's position, I don't want to desire anything, but the will of God. I was told that the safest place is to be in the will of God. Lord, I want to be in your will. Thank you God.

I was able to see Michael S. in concert this evening. I was so happy that I did. I was so happy for him. He is wonderful!!! I'd pay good money to see him in concert. I'm going to buy another CD and then I'm going to buy them as Christmas and Bday gifts. I am proud that I was able to see him now so when he blows up I'll be able to say that I know him personally.

I'm sitting at home today feeling quite bored. The last time I felt this way, I went awry. I'm determined to keep my focus. Lord, please help me!! It's times like this that I want a companion—I want a man, someone who I can sit and watch TV with or go over my work with. It would be nice to have a family to help with projects or do stuff with. I don't like living alone. Lord, I don't like living alone. I have to do laundry, do work for school, do work for work, but I'm not motivated because I feel blah. But I have to go back to my focus, my priority---I want to live saved. I want to grow spiritually. Am I emotionally immature if I don't want to be alone anymore?

In order to be married I need more money. I have to pay down my student loan. There is no reason that a man should take on that debt. I also need to want to do laundry more—I think. I hate doing laundry and he would want his laundry done. Also, I need to be more organized with my stuff.

GGGGRRRRRRR, I can't stand this. It's not even about the sex anymore. I just want companionship. The Bible says the Holy spirit will be my comforter. I need a comforter cause I don't want to have to text one of the guys who have been texting me. B has been texting me, Leonne has been texting me, Chris has been texting me, and I don't know what the deal is with Marcus. I think he's married, so I'm not going there at all.

I Love God and I want to live for Him!!! So I don't want to compromise anymore. I want to be obedient to Him so that I can live a happy, abundant life. I thank God for His word. Thank you God for Your work and Your truth!!!

This morning I found myself dreaming that I was with someone—not sure who, who was in an abusive relationship. The woman was faceless, but I was determined to help her. The guy had been beating on her and we were in this house and the guy was huge—hulk like huge, expect he wasn’t green. We were throwing stuff and beating him up because he had been beating on her and I was telling her that she needed to fight him back. Then we picked up these long silver poles and started whacking him with it. At first it seemed to not faze him at all, but then we started to see blood seep through his skin and little by little more blood was seeping through and he began to get angry and get up. We began to back up as he began to come towards us. My heart was racing and as he was coming towards us I yelled for her to run, let’s get out of here and he was fast behind us and then I yelled, “call the police,” and I woke up.

My interpretation:

For a long time the devil has been abusing me, in my mind and I've been fighting and fighting. The faceless woman was my spirit (or maybe the other way around). Well for a long time I've been fighting and finally as I'm getting older and wiser, I'm realizing that I can use a different weapon to fight, so the weapons that I have been using have been impacting the devil and what seems like it hasn't been fazing him is now making an impact because I've used something stronger. However, the devil is not going to take anything sitting down. He began to come after me stronger and instead of me fighting within myself, I yelled to call the police. The police is a higher authority. The police has the power to stop him. In the spirit the Holy Spirit is the authority to stop the enemy. The Bible says, "now unto Him who is able to keep me..." Jesus is able to keep me from succombing to the abuse that I've taken for years from the devil. So, now I use my spiritual weapon--the Holy Spirity (the police) who has the power to overcome the enemy...

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