30 Something

I'm sitting at home today feeling quite bored. The last time I felt this way, I went awry. I'm determined to keep my focus. Lord, please help me!! It's times like this that I want a companion—I want a man, someone who I can sit and watch TV with or go over my work with. It would be nice to have a family to help with projects or do stuff with. I don't like living alone. Lord, I don't like living alone. I have to do laundry, do work for school, do work for work, but I'm not motivated because I feel blah. But I have to go back to my focus, my priority---I want to live saved. I want to grow spiritually. Am I emotionally immature if I don't want to be alone anymore?

In order to be married I need more money. I have to pay down my student loan. There is no reason that a man should take on that debt. I also need to want to do laundry more—I think. I hate doing laundry and he would want his laundry done. Also, I need to be more organized with my stuff.

GGGGRRRRRRR, I can't stand this. It's not even about the sex anymore. I just want companionship. The Bible says the Holy spirit will be my comforter. I need a comforter cause I don't want to have to text one of the guys who have been texting me. B has been texting me, Leonne has been texting me, Chris has been texting me, and I don't know what the deal is with Marcus. I think he's married, so I'm not going there at all.

I Love God and I want to live for Him!!! So I don't want to compromise anymore. I want to be obedient to Him so that I can live a happy, abundant life. I thank God for His word. Thank you God for Your work and Your truth!!!