30 Something

My so called bf has been blowing me off on the weekends. It was our custom to spend the entire weekends together--Friday-Monday. Well, for the past couple of weekends, he's been spending time with his S & M friends. Well, I didn't know this so I asked him if he was seeing someone else. He told me that he was, but that wasn't the reason for changing our plans on the weekends. He basically said that he wants to hang out with his friends on Saturdays, but I don't allow him to do that so he doesn't invite me over until Sunday. So, I asked about this girlfriend of his. He basically said that they've only been seeing each other for a couple of weeks and there has been no sex, even though that's not out of the picture. We had this lengthy discussion about our relationship. Basically, he still doesn't trust me. I don't even think that he wants to trust me. The outcome of the our conversation was that I was screwed up and I screwed up our relationship. I'm still hanging though. I don't know what's going to transpire this weekend. It's the holiday weekend.--a long weekend. So I guess I need to get my Blockbuster collection ready because I know that he's not going to invite me over until probably Sunday. But, I've got to be okay with it.

The other guy that I've been going out with is okay, but I'm not really interested in him. He doesn't "do anything" for me. He's attractive and he has a great personality. I just don't know about him. So I'll just keep dating him until something changes. I know I'm just blowing in the wind, but I'm too exhausted to do anything else.

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