30 Something

I got to work today 5 min. late. Actually that's good for me. In the past 6 mos. I've taken more sick days and been late enough times to take up a good amount of my vacation time. Really, I'm plain bored and tired of my job. I used to take on a lot of responsibility at work until I got a new boss. You know how it is when you get hired to do a job that you've never done before at a new place. You spend a lot of time learning the role and the job. Well, that's what if feels like now. I'm doing new things that I don't want to do. I want my old job back. I was just getting good at it. Of course all of it is not my new boss. Sometimes I feel like I should have had her job. So, yeah I'm bitter, but I wish that I was bitter doing my old job, not something new. I'll get over it though. I have to if I want to do better.

So today I'm refusing to clean my office because I'm tired. I have no motivation to. I don't have anything to do, except read the tons of mail and interoffice memos that clutters my desk. Well, I do have to update some files, but I don't feel like it. I know people are going to think negatively about me, but I just don't care because I want to do what I want to do. I'm only opposing authority because I don't respect them. I know that's crazy because everyone makes mistakes, but I wish that I had someone that inspires me. I wish that I could have someone that I can communicate with about my job and what I want to do.

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