Not feeling very good
I went to my interview on Tuesday. I got there a half and hour early to rest my nerves. I felt the interview went really well, but I'm beginning to doubt myself. I've been thinking about the search committees that I've been on and the type of candidate that we need in our program. I think our program would suffer if everyone here was black. I also think that the male participation in our program lags due to the fact that we don't have a male working for us. Therefore, I've come to the conclusion that because everyone who works for their program is black a white candidate would be a better choice. Also, I believe that a male candidate would be an even better choice. Of course that's just my logic based on how our program has changed since we've now a black director. There are more black students participating in the program, whereas when our director was white we had more white students. I also believe that if we had a male person working for us, we would have more male students. I truely believe that the odds are against me on this one.