30 Something

Price called me last night to tell me he was in Peoria. He wanted me to come up to see him. I refused. He then asked me if I would come up on this morning because he didn't want to be there at the meetings all day. I agreed to meet him there. So I get to Peoria around 6:30, about an hour late and he wants me to take him to Bloomington which is okay with because thats closer to where I live. So we get to Bloomington and he checks into the hotel. I walk up with him to his room and sit down. We were getting ready to go to the mall when he pushes me to the bed, climbs on top of me and kisses me. WTF? I brain started going crazy. Before I know it I had his pants off and was massaging his member. The phone kept ringing and for some reason the alarm clock kept going off. We didn't have any protection so I told him that I would be back and on the way out the door he kept telling me that it wasn't a good time. I almost yelled at him to make it a good time. So I was off to the gas station next door, but I had to sit a minute and say a little prayer to God that what was about to happen didn't happen. I got to the gas station and picked up two boxes of condoms a pack of halls cough drops and right before I was going to pay for the goods, I noticed a pack of Lifesaves. I whispered a prayer that God would save me from the damnable sin that I was about to commit and I headed back to the hotel. I sat and gobbled up some Lifesavers and Price scared me as he knocked on the window to my vehicle. At that point I was mad and I didnt want to talk to him. The whole time I he was kissing me I was asking him why was he toying with me and now I was all hot and bothered and prepared and he wasn't going to go through with it. He started it. UGH! So he got in the car and we talked briefly about how this wasn't a good time. He had plans with his fraternity and they were on the way and we didn't have anytime to enjoy ourselves. I felt so stupid, AGAIN! Why do I allow myself to get into these situations. OMG! It's the devil. So I left to go to the mall and he called me to make sure the I forgave him. I need to be totally done with him. I told him before that I didn't want to see him again and I think this time it's the real deal. I can't take it anymore.

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