30 Something

So I met Mr. B in a martini bar. I guess I was too drunk to hear him say that he was married. So we hung out and when I found out I already made it up in my mind that the relationship wasn't going anywhere. I know some women can have relationships with married men, but I can't because I need to have a man that is accessible to me 24/7. I don't want to have to tiptoe around and sneak around and wonder what I'm not supposed to do. I want to be free to fall in love. So I made it up in my mind that I would go out with him and that I can even kiss him (he's an amazing kisser), but that would be it. However, on last Thursday I crossed the line a little bit. When we went out he told me that he really like me. So i started flirting heavily. At the end of the night I was standing between his legs and all up in his face talking to him. I was drunk with all of these warm fuzzy feelings. I hadn't had too much to drink because I only had one drink, but i was so excited that he was digging me that my mind went a little crazy. So he drove me home and I asked him up. Why? I don't know. I wanted to kiss and he's an amazing kisser. So we got up to my place and I knew i wasn't going to have sex with him because I didn't want to, but I wanted to get hot and heavy with him. I was trying to be careful because I didn't want him to think that I wanted to have sex with him, but I threw careful out the door when he pulled me on top of him. It was great. (no, we didn't have sex, but it was pretty hot and heavy). By the time he left I was down to my underwear. He was I had him cornered at the door, but he wouldn't stop kissing me. So I slipped out of my jeans and my top. I wanted him to caress me, but he knew better. I wanted to touch him, but he wouldn't let me. So it was fun. Definitly a lot of fun. So I was thinking about if I could just have sex with him.

I was listening to Michael Baisden show on the radio and the topic of the day was "The other woman". There were women who are proud to be the other woman, there were women who got financial incentives from being the other woman. The the wives and gfs of the cheating men called him also. Their point was that their husbands and bfs weren't going to leave them so even though they didn't like the fact that the man was tipping out, they dealt with if because he "took care of home." Then the professionals chimed in with the realistic view that "what comes around goes around." So it was a pretty interesting convo that they were having. So after listening to that I was trying to make it up in my mind if I wanted to deal with the ramifications of being the other woman. After yesteday and how Mr. B reacted I'm not sure if I want to be. I think that his mindset was, "y are u calling me?" "What am I supposed to do?" So I don't think that I will get into this relationship with him. I think that I would continue to be single until I found the man of my dreams.

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