30 Something

I've been hanging out with magic fingers a lot more lately. We went to see X-men the other night and I really enjoyed it even though I barely remembered anything from the previous movies. However, since we've been hanging out, I've been having this urge to call him the wrong name. At first I couldn't understand why I wanted to call him somebody else's name, but then it hit me. He reminded me of an ex bf. When I was in college I dated a guy who was really athletic. He played football and ran track. He was awarded for his athletisism and eventually reaped the ultimate award of being drafted to the NFL. We dated from my sophomore year until my senior year when he was drafted. After he left I was heart broken. But I got over him; I moved on. Fast forward to today. Magic Fingers reminds me of NFL guy. Both of them ran track in high school and college. Magic coaches a girls track team now. He reminds me so much of NFL guy that sometimes I have an urge to call him the wrong name. I have to bite my tongue to keep from making a fool of myself. I haven't thought about NFL guy in a while. Every now and then I think about how he's doing, but I do that with all the guys that I've dated and had deep feelings for. Why is he coming up now. I want to enjoy magic, but i'm being hindered by flashbacks. It's not really fair to him either. I can tell that he wants to get to know me, but I'm holding back. So I'm afraid that I will miss the opportunity to really get to know him because I'm afraid that the outcome will be the same as with NFL guy. There should be a button to fix this. I should be able to push the easy button and erase the memories that I don't want to keep.

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