30 Something

I am so happy today. I'm single and I'm HAPPY. I went out and bought donuts for my students and it's like I've been wanting to tell everyone "Happy Valentimes Day". Last night at church my pastor talked about relationships. His daughter is getting married and she and her fiancee are "waiting". I'm so happy for her. I've always thought that sex complicated a lot of relationships for me. According to society I'm supposed to be "having fun" and "sowing my wild oats", but really for me and I'm sure for a lot of other people, sex muddied a lot of my relationships. I've suffered many heartbreaks because I gave myself to different guys expecting that he would value what I was giving and many of the guys never did. I'll say it like one of my students, "there are some guys who treat women like a piece of meat." That's the way I felt--like something to be had whenever the feeling was right. Of course there were guys that I used also and I even told them that, but still in the end, it wasn't worth it--mentally, spiritually... So I'm happy to be single and not getting any.

Mr. B. text me on Sunday night so I decided to scare him away. I sent him a voicemail playing Mary J song (at this moment the title excapes me). He didn't call me back. I hope this can be the end of this relationship.

Michael called me last night to try to ask me out on the low. I let him know that I had plans. Of course I didn't tell him that the plans were with Mere, but he didn't need to know that.

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