30 Something

Sigma man asked me if I was dating. I don't know why that questions surprised me (surprised is too strong a word, but I can't think of another way to describe it), but it did. I told him that I don't really date, I just kind of hang out with people. So we kind of talked about what we were doing--were we on a date or just hanging out? I told him that I felt like we were just hanging out. I don't know why but it didn't feel like a date. I also told him that that last time I went on a date was probably April, but again I didn't feel like it was a date. So I was thinking about that--Why don't I feel like it's a date? I do the whole, take hours to find something to wear and shower and do my make-up and perfume and body spray--the whole nine yards, but I don't call it a date. Why? Because I'm not really sure I look at it as something that will potentially turn into something other than friendship. I was just seeking friendship, not a date, not someone to sleep with. I wanted to connect with someone on a different level other than intimacy. So I just thought we were hanging out and I think that's why I had so much fun. A date is too rigid for me. I want to be loose and free. I don't want to be confined. A date may turn sour and I may never hear from him again. A friendship will last despite anything that happen when we are hanging out.

One thing that interest me was that early in the evening he was talking about his friends who've been married for like year and then are divorcing, I thought that was interesting. What he trying to say something....hmmmm?

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