Body led
I went to church last night and Lady spoke about the difference between the body, soul, and spirit. She stated that most of us have been led by our soul (emotions) and body (senses) for so long that we don't know how to be lead by our spirit. As she was teaching she was encouraging us to not allow our bodies(senses) and soul (emotions) to rule us, but be spirit led.
I loved listening to her talk so I left charged and ready to be led by my spirit. Well, my mind (part of my soul) decided that I was bored so thinking about sex was more fun than being bored and before I knew it my mind and my spirit were fighting each other and my mind won--i just kept going over in my mind how good it would feel, and the devil took over. the devil made me do it--can I use that excuse? So B texted me at 1:15am.
B: "What's shakin"
Me: "Nuthin, watching tv, what u doin"
B:"at Njs"
Me:"U goin home afta"
B:"No"
Me:"What u doin"
B:"Ur house"
What, no, no, no. I just played right into the hands of sin. I asked him to spend the night. Of course he couldn't, but he said maybe tomorrow (which is today). I was thinking, "there won't be a tomorrow, ima burn in hell for tonight." Ugh, I felt sick this morning, like I just messed everything up. I got to reading about David and Bathsheba and I really felt sick. ugh, I just need to get back up and do right. Sigma man said he was coming to visit me. NOT. I don't have time for his games. He wanst sex, sex, sex, and I'm not gonna be the one to give it to him. I'll have to beat him off with a stick if he shows up tomorrow.
I loved listening to her talk so I left charged and ready to be led by my spirit. Well, my mind (part of my soul) decided that I was bored so thinking about sex was more fun than being bored and before I knew it my mind and my spirit were fighting each other and my mind won--i just kept going over in my mind how good it would feel, and the devil took over. the devil made me do it--can I use that excuse? So B texted me at 1:15am.
B: "What's shakin"
Me: "Nuthin, watching tv, what u doin"
B:"at Njs"
Me:"U goin home afta"
B:"No"
Me:"What u doin"
B:"Ur house"
What, no, no, no. I just played right into the hands of sin. I asked him to spend the night. Of course he couldn't, but he said maybe tomorrow (which is today). I was thinking, "there won't be a tomorrow, ima burn in hell for tonight." Ugh, I felt sick this morning, like I just messed everything up. I got to reading about David and Bathsheba and I really felt sick. ugh, I just need to get back up and do right. Sigma man said he was coming to visit me. NOT. I don't have time for his games. He wanst sex, sex, sex, and I'm not gonna be the one to give it to him. I'll have to beat him off with a stick if he shows up tomorrow.
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