This time of the year
I love and hate this time of the year. I hate it because this is the time to be with family, to hang out, shop together, watch movies while cooking together, eat together, etc., and I don't have any family to do that with. I'm not sure why people are surprised when I say I'm not close to my family. It's like they can't imagine not being close to their family. Ok, maybe they can't, but as dysfunctional as most families are, I'm sure it's not so foreign to them. Anyway, I love this time of year because to me its a time for reflection. I reflect on the year that has passed and the new year ahead. Last year around this time I was so sure that this was the year that I would find the man of my dreams and fall in love and be happily married before the end of the year. Well, if that is to come true I need to find him in about 30 days. I know at the beginning of the year, love was in the air. Of course a girl at my church got married in february, but I just knew it was gonna be me. Why was I feeling that way, like I was walking on cloud nine. My friend Mere is engaged and she won't be married until a year from now, but man I just knew it was gonna be me. I'm not mad or bitter, just curios as to what I was feeling. Maybe it was just gas.
Anyway, as I look back over the year, I can see the mistakes I've made--getting involved with Price, spending too much money, not being as committed to my faith as I need to be...But, this year I vow to be better. Each new year brings about a newness the spirit of change and with each new year I want to make sure that I get better. My goals for the new year:
Advance in my education--get back into school
Advance in my career
Advance in my finances--buy a condo, I can't take care of a house
Advance in my spriritual like--hear God and follow Him
I still want to get married, but I need a plan just in case that is not the will of God for my life.
When I was 22 I made a list of 30 things I want to do before 30 and I planned my life all the way up until I was about the age I am now because I just knew that by now I would be planning a new life with someone else, however, that's not guaranteed. So I need a new plan. I need 30 more things to do even though I didn't complete all 30 from before. Before the year is out I will plan the next 10 years of my life. I'll make two plans--one for marriage and one for singledom.
Anyway, as I look back over the year, I can see the mistakes I've made--getting involved with Price, spending too much money, not being as committed to my faith as I need to be...But, this year I vow to be better. Each new year brings about a newness the spirit of change and with each new year I want to make sure that I get better. My goals for the new year:
Advance in my education--get back into school
Advance in my career
Advance in my finances--buy a condo, I can't take care of a house
Advance in my spriritual like--hear God and follow Him
I still want to get married, but I need a plan just in case that is not the will of God for my life.
When I was 22 I made a list of 30 things I want to do before 30 and I planned my life all the way up until I was about the age I am now because I just knew that by now I would be planning a new life with someone else, however, that's not guaranteed. So I need a new plan. I need 30 more things to do even though I didn't complete all 30 from before. Before the year is out I will plan the next 10 years of my life. I'll make two plans--one for marriage and one for singledom.
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