Breaking Free
For a long time I struggled with many habits in my life--things that kept me bound. One particular habit I begged and begged God to heal me of. At one point I thought I was healed because I didn't feel like doing it anymore, but sure enough the uges came back and I was right back to square one. Then just last week I knew I was delivered because I didn't even feel it anymore. I didn't think about it, I didn't have a uge, it was gone. I was different. I praised God because at that point I understood what people meant by saying they didn't know when God delivered them, but they just know He did. I knew God had healed me--one day I woke up and it was gone.
So, imagine my diappointment when I made myself do it. I was so upset that I went back and picked up what God had delievered me from. I've been longing to improve my spiritual relationship with God and this particular habit would keep me from hearing from God so it is detrimental to my spirit that I get past this.
I was praying and I began to think about how they train an elephant to stay where you want it to stay and not run away. When an elephant is born they chain it by its leg to a big post. The baby elephant doesn't have the strength to break free so eventually after trying and trying it stops and doesn't try anymore. As the elephant is growing the master takes the strong post down and ties a simple rope around the leg of the elephant. Because the elephant has tried so much and so hard when it was little it doesn't even try to break free. The elephant doesn't realize it has the strength to break free from the flemsy post and the measly rope. It simply stays bound to the post.
I began to cry because as God was showing me this I realized that I had the strength to not return to the habit, but because I had been bound so long I didn't think I did. I allowed the devil to entice me back into my old habit. But I PRAISE God because I am free and I don't have to be bound anymore. Whom the son set free is free indeed.
So, imagine my diappointment when I made myself do it. I was so upset that I went back and picked up what God had delievered me from. I've been longing to improve my spiritual relationship with God and this particular habit would keep me from hearing from God so it is detrimental to my spirit that I get past this.
I was praying and I began to think about how they train an elephant to stay where you want it to stay and not run away. When an elephant is born they chain it by its leg to a big post. The baby elephant doesn't have the strength to break free so eventually after trying and trying it stops and doesn't try anymore. As the elephant is growing the master takes the strong post down and ties a simple rope around the leg of the elephant. Because the elephant has tried so much and so hard when it was little it doesn't even try to break free. The elephant doesn't realize it has the strength to break free from the flemsy post and the measly rope. It simply stays bound to the post.
I began to cry because as God was showing me this I realized that I had the strength to not return to the habit, but because I had been bound so long I didn't think I did. I allowed the devil to entice me back into my old habit. But I PRAISE God because I am free and I don't have to be bound anymore. Whom the son set free is free indeed.
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